A dream is a wish that your heart makes.

Well. No news again today.

I know that when I called last week, she said, "No news is good news until you hear good news." While I appreciate she was optimistic - what exactly is that supposed to mean? I'm officially at day 21 of waiting. It's getting harder with each passing day, not knowing whether I'll be down there in January or not.

The stress this is putting on my body is insane. I can't really eat, sleep, or function. I'm continually on edge - waiting to hear my phone go off to alert me of an email. And every time it chimes, letting me know I have an email, I have a mini-heart attack. Then I see the email is from Chili's and I get annoyed (seriously - they send so many coupons).

I sincerely hope I don't have to wait too much longer and I receive that email with the coveted "CONGRATULATIONS!" subject. Ugh, I don't even know how I'll act if I get that. I've been a Negative Nancy for entirely too long.

Sorry this is such another negative post. But it's getting harder to stay positive - even for me.

Oh, and the moment I went to post this - I got an email. It was from McDonalds. I cried a little bit.